You are now a year old! On Saturday, we celebrated your first year with family, cake and presents. You cried when we sang you “Happy Birthday”, and then kept crying when we gave you cake. So, we took a break, opened presents and then tried the cake again. You liked it the second time!
It was a big day of firsts for you! Your first birthday, first haircut and you took your first steps! The first steps you took was to your Nana, then you took a few more to your dad. We were so proud of you!
This last year has been on of the best of my life, and one of the hardest. You have taught me how to be a mom. There were days where I felt like I had this whole mom thing down, and like it was easy and we conquered the day together. Then there were days, where I wondered how God thought I was capable of taking care of you. There have been a lot of naps, coffee and tears and short tempers. I’m sorry for the days that I haven’t been my best for you. I know there will be a lot of days like that in the future, since I’m not perfect. But we will learn and grow together, and I will continue to try to be the best mom I can be for you.
You bring so much joy and life to our days. You greet us with a smile every morning and wave goodbye to us at bedtime with a big grin on your face. You fill the house with sweet noises of playing, jabbering, singing and laughing. You make us laugh with your eyebrow raises, your silly faces, the way you like to be chased and wrestled with, the way you try to shove as many Goldfish crackers in your mouth as possible because you love them so much, and all the other funny things you do. Life is better with you in it! You are such a little character.
You also have a very serious, curious side to you. You are very aware when you’re in a new place. You check everything out and take it all in before you let yourself play or trust someone. You are starting to get more adventurous and social, but you are still very cautious. I love that side of you and that you pay attention to things before you fully dive in. I hope that is a characteristic that stays with you.
You also love food. You’ve recently decided that you’re done with nursing and baby food, which I’m really happy about. You want to eat everything! Right now you love eggs, yogurt, almond butter on bread, strawberries, cheese, avocados, cucumbers, and anything your dad and I are eating.
Recently, you also decided to start sleeping through the night! You’ve rarely been waking up, besides an 5 am bottle, and sleeping until 6:30 or 7:00 am. Since I have never been a morning person, you have taught me how to enjoy being up while the sun is rising, and having more of the day to spend with you and your dad. Most days. Sometimes, I wish you liked to sleep in and I don’t want to get out of bed when I hear you telling us your awake in the morning. But, I know in a few years I’ll be having to drag you out of bed, so I’ll just take these early mornings of coffee and play time and enjoy them.
I can’t wait for all the things we have to look forward to this year. You have so many ‘firsts’ to come, and I can’t wait to be there for them all. I can’t wait to play with you this summer, maybe take you to the zoo and show you all the animals, eat juicy watermelon outside on a hot day, maybe swim lessons too! You are growing so quickly every day. There’s proof of that by a shirt you fit in one day and grow out of the next. You are no longer a little baby, but a toddler on the verge of discovering so many things!
This second year of your life will be so good, just because you are you and we get to spend our days with you.
We are so thankful for you, and pray for you every day. Our hearts of so full because of you.
I hope you know how loved you are, little one.